People of greater faith than I am blessed with, at least of the Byzantine Monotheistic variety, are wont to say god never gives you more than you can deal with. This, of course (I am thinking today), is nonsense.
Although the sun is shining, I'm feeling rather down. Mum is still in a great deal of pain, not only from the surgery, but because lying in bed is physical agony for her right now even without the surgical pain; her tailbone has been damaged enough by many falls that the nerves around it are permanently overstimulated. In short, she can't get comfortable. Her medical team is not providing her enough pain killer, largely because they don't realize that. I'm going to try to tell them today.
Yesterday, she was not as lucid as she'd been the previous day. The pain played into it, but I am realizing that her mental clarity has retreated at least semi-permanently. The confusion in her eyes kills me.
And today I got a call from my FB. He's having serious difficulties in school as the semester is ending, and was seeking support and advice. I tried to give both long distance - omigod, is Google video hangout helpful - but when I signed off from him, and after I looked over the latest emails dealing with union stuff at work, I just felt like I wanted to climb into the computer permanently. Gah.
BUT. BUT. There have been good things; Mum finally passed a particular abdominal milestone that should allow her to eat some solids (she is already up to milk, tea, and soup, which was a big step Sunday evening). During her strongest period yesterday, she was also able to get off the bed with some help, and move her body over to a chair. But she could only sit up for six or seven minutes, and once she was back in the bed, her pain increased and her clarity decreas--shut UP !! Focus on the positive!!!
Oh, and here's a picture of my good friend Al.
We had a good two hours together yesterday afternoon, catching up and talking about medical systems and journalism (he's a writer who got his start in newspapers.) Since I had felt bad about drifting away from him, this was a good thing. So there you go. And I'm going to chat with BB now, about FB's woes. Wish me luck. Or provide free advice, I'm partial to free advice. Heh.
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